~Preveiw~ Dynasty Warriors~Love and Hate

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

Just a Preview to see if this is going to be good it's the end of one of my stories from the game, Dynasty Warriors, one of my made-up character's(Pang Shae) Death. Tell me if you like this and I might post more and maybe even the whole story.

“Forgive…sounds good…”*
This is what happens to someone who wants so much from life…and so little at the same time. This is how someone dies when you love them so much but never get to let them know. This is how someone dies when you want so much for them to reach their goals but never get to truly support them. This is how someone dies when you hate them so much even though you know they can do what you say they can’t.
“Forget…I’m not sure I could…”*
Life can be hard at times and we all know that people don’t always say what they mean. We’ve all been taught not to judge a book by its cover, and we’ve all lost someone we cared about in one way or another, no matter who we are.
“They say…time heals everything…”*
This is how you die when you want so much to prove yourself to people that you truly care about. This is how you die when you are loved but don’t know. This is how you die when you have the support you know you need but just can’t see it. This is how you die when you really want to be like someone but can’t because you hate them so much for some strange reason.
“But I’m still waiting…”*
It all happened so quickly that everything is still a blur to me. The anger I felt towards her, the love I had for her, I way that I couldn’t help but believe that she’d never get anywhere. I can’t believe that I let her die like that, but there was nothing that I could do, and they had told me that.
“I paid…a price…”*
It all happened so suddenly and the last time I saw her without that gash in her side…the last time that I saw her smile back at me as if all the fights we had gotten into had never happened. I just can’t remember after that…but…I’m here to tell you a story not talk on and on and put you all to sleep…
“And I’ll keep paying.”*
The Battle Of Yi Ling

“Pang Shae, get over here! Hurry!” Yelled a voice as a girl came rolling out of the flames, jumping to her feet and quickly cutting her enemies down. She looked around and ducked quickly before starting a quick dash across the battlefield, killing several people in the process.
Who said my name! This is horrible! I can’t think. Come on Pang Shae…relax! Really you have to relax or you’re going to get killed. The little voice in her head screamed as she ran forward, but someone had said her name and she couldn’t lie about that and whoever had called her needed her. Suddenly she tripped over something, or someone.
“PANG TONG WHAT ARE YOU DOING DOWN THERE!” Pang Shae screamed glaring down at the person she had tripped over, who happened to look like he was either sleeping or dead.
“I’m sleeping! Well actually I’m…no I’m sleeping.” Pang Tong said looking up at his sister who kicked him and then pulled him to his feet, handing him a weapon and shoving him into the fight, following behind him.
“Pang Shae! Pang Tong!” Yelled a voice. Pang Shae jumped at one of the enemy soldiers, stabbing him and taking him down as another came and kicked her throwing her backwards into Pang Tong who frowned pulling her to her feet.
“If you’re just going to knock me over then you really are useless!” He said looking a Pang Shae who sighed a determined look coming across her face, one that so clearly said, “I’ll prove that I’m not useless! Even if it kills me!” Pang Tong watched as his younger sister went running off, slaughtering her enemies as she ran.
“Even if it kills me…” Pang Shae muttered under her breath. She was so sick of the way Pang Tong always treated her. The way he always put her down. The way the both of them always treated her like she was nothing. She’d prove to Pang Tong and Zhuge Liang that she wasn’t worthless even if it killed her.
She rammed into something hard and heard a familiar voice. “Pang Shae…there you are…I didn’t think you’d ram into me but at least I found you…” There was the sound of metal on metal and then silence once more. Pang Shae looked up and her eyes landed on Zhao Yun’s familiar face and she let out a sigh of relief.
“Have you been calling me?” She asked only to be dragged off once again into the battle, this time by Zhao Yun. She tired her best to follow him until they reached the flaming camp once again.
“Listen…find Lui Bei and protect him with the others. You’re a great with that sword and he needs more protection. I have no real idea where he is but I know that he is somewhere…northwest of here.” Zhao Yun said looking down at Pang Shae.
“Pang Shae,” he continued, “This is your chance to prove to everyone that you’re the great warrior that I think you are, that so many of us know you are. Go and do this because I have to say here, now go!” Zhao Yun pushed Pang Shae off and charged back into battle.

That’s when it all happened. Pang Shae couldn’t believe that anyone had that much faith in her. She really couldn’t believe that Zhao Yun had told her to do something that important. She didn’t know that it would mean that she was going to die thought but then again. She was never ready to back down and I know for a fact that she put up an amazing fight.

“Pang Shae? What are you doing here?” Demanded a voice. Pang Shae looked up and her eyes glossed over when the landed on Guan Ping, who happened to be the sorce of the voice. She smiled slightly before looking at the ground.
“Zhao Yun sent me here in his place.” She muttered in a small and seemingly timid voice as she walked forward. “He said that he believed in me and that this was my chance to prove myself as a great warrior.” She looked up and smiled. “Now where is Lord Lui Bei?” She asked.
“Well we all know you’re a great warrior already…isn’t that enough for you? He’s over that way with the others in the party, we were just about to leave.” Guan Ping said looking over top of Pang Shae who frowned.

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

“What are you doing!? Trying to make me feel shorter then I already am!?” She demanded glaring up at Guan Ping who shook his head and pointed over her's. Pang Shae spun around to see enemy soldiers coming in their direction quickly.
“Come on…let’s move.” Guan Ping said turning around and running off, looking over his shoulder to make sure that Pang Shae was following. Pang Shae closed her eyes the yells of the enemy were only about three yards behind her when she finally took off running after Guan Ping.
By the time she caught up to him the enemy soldiers were swarming around them and he was protecting Lui Bei, the others all fighting valiantly but to no avail as they were all being completely slaughtered by the enemy. It was like a huge blood bath and within five seconds there were 4 dead bodies of people that Pang Shae had known, people that had been her friends, around her.
Pang Shae let out an unearthly scream as she drew her sword charging down her enemies, taking them out one by one. She felt that the people, her friends that were still alive were watching her. She let out another long scream, jumping through the air and swinging her sword around wildly, killing many of the enemies that were in front of her.

That’s when she realized that…she was no longer fighting to prove herself but she was fighting to preserve the honor that she already had. The faith her friends and the people around her had in her. Guan Ping was right in asking the question he had…they all already knew that Pang Shae was a great warrior…wasn’t being respected by so many people enough for her.
“I’m not ready to make nice…”
The only problem was…that she only ever wanted to make me proud of her…because I was her older brother and I never gave her the respect that she deserved. I was always siding with Zhuge Liang rather then my own sister because I believed that for some reason, Zhuge Liang was right, I thought she didn’t have what it takes to be a great warrior.
“I’m not ready to back down…”
But she did…because she never let what we told her hold her down, she let it make her more determined to prove that she was just as great as I was and just as great as Zhuge Liang and she had something that we didn’t…she had the ability to throw her life down for people that she hated, because if she had to, she would die for Zhuge Liang even though she hated him…
“I’m still mad as hell…”

“Pang Shae!” The name echoed through Pang Shae’s head as she looked up to see on of the enemy soldiers dashing towards Lui Bei and Guan Ping. Lui Bei was facing the side so he didn’t notice and Guan Ping was facing the back so he didn’t notice either. Pang Shae’s heard pounded in her head as she dashed towards them, her eyes watering up.
“I won’t let you kill them! I won’t let you kill them!” She screamed the tears in her eyes blocking her vision as she made a running dash towards Lui Bei and Guan Ping. Zhao Yun was right they all were right, she did have a lot of power, and she was a great warrior already and she would die like one if she had to. She was prepared to die as a great warrior protecting the people the meant everything to her, the people that accepted her when her own brother wouldn’t.
There was total silence and then suddenly, Pang Shae felt the sharp metal blade of the enemy soldier pierce her side. She gritted her teeth in pain before giving up and letting out a scream of pain and fury as she cut down the man in front of her, panting hard to keep her breath as she watched him fall to the ground. She looked at her feet, her own blood mixed in with the blood of the man she had killed forming a large pool at her feet. She grabbed the sword lodged in her side and pulled it out before raising her sword once more. “I…won’t…let…them…die…” She panted closing her eyes.
Guan Ping and Lui Bei both spun around when they heard the loud sound of Pang Shae’s scream. Their eyes landed on the girl who stood there and they watched as the enemy pushed his sword deeper into Pang Shae’s side and then gasped as Pang Shae killed him and pulled the sword from her side.
Lui Bei smiled. “She’s changed…since she joined…hasn’t she…” He said looking at Guan Ping who looked over his shoulder at Lui Bei not understanding what he ment. He looked at Pang Shae and suddenly he understand everything that Lui Bei meant.
Standing in front of him was a totally different woman from the Pang Shae that he had known for so long. Standing in front of him, in a pool of blood, was a girl who had fought with herself for so long and had finally come out on top in time to save her friends. A woman that was strong and had to withstand the taunts and the put downs placed upon her by her own brother. In front of him was a great warrior and something told him that even Pang Tong and Zhuge Liang would have thought so.
Pang Shae opened her eyes looking at the swarm of enemies in front of her and without thinking, not that she could think very well at all and she already felt dizzy from blood loss she charged at her enemies driving them back with ease. She turned around and made her way back to Guan Ping and Lui Bei before finally collapsing.
“Good job…you really are a great warrior, Pang Shae.” Came the sound of Guan Ping’s voice. Pang Shae had no idea what was happening, her eyes seemed to be broken but her ears were working fine. “I’m sure that if Pang Tong was here…he’d be proud.”
Pang Shae heard soft footsteps. “Pang Shae. You are in fact a great warrior. You fought both valiantly and strongly, putting your friends first before yourself. I’m proud that I didn’t listen to Zhuge Liang when he told me not to let you join…because if I didn’t…then I would no longer be standing right now. Pang Shae…you have my complete thanks and all of my gratitude. Thank you.” Pang Shae closed her eyes as she heard Lui Bei thank her and then the next thing she knew, everything was back and she couldn’t hear anything.

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

“I probably wouldn’t if I could…”
Pang Shae finally saw that she had what she wanted all her life, someone to respect her fully. Someone that really thought she could amount to anything she put to mind to. She knew that he goal might not have been reached but she deep down she knew that she had what she wanted the entire time.
“Cause I’m mad as hell…”
I never would have thought that she really wanted me to look at her for once. She was always fighting with Zhuge Liang and I so how would I know that she wanted me to respect her. I know now she deserves all the respect that I have and I believe that she should be known for what she did. She threw away her life right there on the spot not wanting anything in return but she got so much from the people she saved.
“Can’t bring myself…”
And I need her to know that now that she’s gone…there’s a huge void in my heart and I don’t know how to fill it up. She did more with her life then I have…I know that’s for sure and she’s always going to be the person that comes into my mind when I think of people who were great warriors and great friends.
“To do what it is you think I should…”
I didn’t get news of what had happened until after the battle. It was horrible and I felt so upset, and I thought that the last thing I got to say to her was that she really was useless…but she was so much more then useless, so much more then worthless…she was worth more then gold.
“What it is you think I should…”

“I wonder if she’ll be alright…” Muttered a voice. Pang Shae rolled over, her head pounded and her side hurt like she had a sword stabbed through it. She couldn’t remember what was going on…the only thing she remembered was seeing the enemy killing all of Lui Bei’s guards.
“Proves Zhuge Liang wrong…she’s amazing…” Responded another voice. Pang Shae racked her mind for the details of why he head could hurt so horribly and why her side was killing her. She opened her eyes and looked around. She was lying in a field of flowers, or that’s what she saw far away was the glimmering outline of her sword she reached for it.
“Yeah…I can’t believe she just let herself do that…” Pang Shae frowned at the sound of voices and soon saw the foggy outlines of people standing around her. The field of flowers was fading from her view and being replaced by something else.
“I’m even to much of a wuss to do that!” Pang Shae blinked once again and looked around, scanning her surroundings carefully, her eyes were starting to blur.
“Pang Shae? She’s waking up…Pang Shae?” Asked a soft and familiar voice. Pang Shae blinked once again the figure of Zhao Yun came swimming into view. She blinked and the form became more solid and suddenly all the details came running into her head.
The pure anger she felt to take out all the soldiers that were in front of her. The sound of her name in her own head. That pure wish to save the people she cared for. Sending the enemy off from her and her friends. “Zhao Yun…what happened? Where am I?” She asked looking around at the two people that were in the room, Zhao Yun and Sing Shang.
“I don’t know but I heard it was amazing, that it was astounding.” Sing Shang said from the other side of the room. “I heard that you fought those soldiers like you had done it all you’re life, I mean, Pang Shae…I knew that you would do something amazing, but I didn’t think you’d do anything this drastic…this is just…wow…” She added a smile on her face.
“Zhao Yun…I can’t remember what happened? What did I do…Why does my side hurt so much?” Pang Shae said looking up at Zhao Yun who grabbed a chair and sat down, frowning slightly.
“Well…from what I know you were fighting the enemy wonderfully and then suddenly you were running towards Lui Bei and Guan Ping at the same time as an enemy soldier and then…the enemy stabbed his sword through your side and even after that you still fought until finally you collapsed…” Zhao Yun said looking at Pang Shae who shot up in bed.
“Guan Ping…Lord Lui Bei…where are they!? Are they alright!?” She asked in a worried tone, with a worried expression to match it. Sing Shang looked up at her and laughed before walking over and grabbing a pillow, propping it up and putting Pang Shae against it.
“Lord Lui Bei got out with out any major wounds, I’m not sure about Guan Ping thought.” Zhao Yun said looking down at Pang Shae then at Sing Shang smiling and standing up so she could sit down before grabbing another chair.
“I’m fine…nothing to bad, thanks for being so worried about me.” Came Guan Ping’s voice from the doorway. Pang Shae looked up and let out a sigh of relief as he walked from the doorway to the bedside. She watched him carefully catching a slight limp to his step.
“Well that’s good to know…” She muttered and the broke into a harsh coughing fit. Zhao Yun looked at Sing Shang who shook her head and stood up walking out of the room into the hallway. Zhao Yun following her closely.
“What do you think is wrong with her…she’s been coughing like that in her sleep too…” Zhao Yun said looking at Sing Shang who sighed.
“I’m not sure she’s going to make it through this…” She muttered looking around as if making sure no one was listening. She looked back up at Zhao Yun. “All I know is that I don’t think Pang Tong cares…he hasn’t visited her yet and she’s been here for three days.” Sing Shang said.
“So how long have I been out?” Pang Shae asked looking up at Guan Ping who had taken Zhao Yun’s seat.
“Well…you’ve been out for three days now…I think…” Guan Ping said looking down at Pang Shae who sighed, looking around carefully before letting her eyes come to a rest on Guan Ping once again.
“Who’s been to visit?” She asked softly, coughing again, her hand reached for her side. It hurt so much to cough, it hurt to move and she felt horrible, but she’d been stabbed in the side, you generally feel horrible after that happens.

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

“Well…Pang Tong hasn’t been by, neither has the prime minister, but I do know that Lord Lui Bei has been by, Zhao Yun, Sing Shang, Sing Chao, Ma Chao, and umm…I think that Jiang Wei is coming by soon…I’m not sure if he’s been by yet…him or Jiang Ai…” He muttered looking at the ground. “Almost everyone has been in to see you…we’re all worried about you…”
Pang Shae looked at the ground. Her own brother hadn’t been in to visit her yet. She closed her eyes fighting the urge to cry. She’d done so much and he still didn’t care. She opened her eyes to see Zhao Yun and Sing Shang were in the room once again, but with them was Sing Chao and Ma Chao.
“Don’t cry…you know that we all care about you…the other’s only visited you once because they couldn’t see you any more…they’re pretty busy right now…” Sing Shang said nodding.
“Justice must be served to those who are making such a strong young girl to…” Ma Chao started.
“Now’s not the time.” Sing Chao muttered looking at Ma Chao who nodded in understanding and closed his mouth sitting down in a chair looking at the others before pulling turning his attention to his spear.
Guan Ping stood up and walked to the doorway. “Pang Shae, I promise that I’m get Pang Tong and Zhuge Liang to come and visit you if I have to bound and gag them and drag them into the room, just don’t cry.” He said walking out the door and disappearing down the hallway.
Another figure suddenly appeared in the doorway. “I heard there was a brave young girl in here that saved lord Lui Bei. I thought I’d come by to visit this young girl and tell her…that even if the Prime Minister isn’t proud of her…” Pang Shae noticed the voice and form as that of Jiang Wei when he walked through the doorway. “…I am…” He said smiling slightly.
Pang Shae smiled. “Thank you, Jiang Wei…I think that you should all know…well mostly you, Jiang Wei, I’ve always looked up to you.” She said, “So it means a lot to me for you to say that you’re proud of me.”
Jiang Wei smiled broadly. “Well it means a lot to me that you’ve always looked up to me.” He said laughing slightly as he walked into the room. “I saw Guan Ping down the hall…he asked where Zhuge Liang was…what’s with him…he seemed kind of mad…” He said sitting down in Guan Ping’s now empty seat.
“Well he has a good reason! I would be mad too.” Sing Shang said nodding slightly looking at Pang Shae and smiling. There was a strange silence followed by a faded scream that Pang Shae noticed at the scream of Pang Tong. She giggled and looked at the others counting off on her fingers as minutes passed by.

Being ambushed by Guan Ping and seeing him so made wasn’t the best thing for me that day. I could only remember hearing something about being a horrible brother. It was rather interesting to find out later why Guan Ping was so determined to drag me to Pang Shae’s room, but I’m glade he did though.

“Well well well…it’s about time you came to see me! Some big brother you are! Oh and thank you, Guan Ping.” Pang Shae said when Guan Ping finally returned with Zhuge Liang and Pang Tong.
“I can’t believe you could be like that! It’s horrible! How dare you treat your sister like that!” Jiang Wei said looking at Pang Tong. “And Prime Minister…I don’t know what to say! That’s just horrible! It’s just so wrong of you! I can’t believe that you’d do such a thing as to still think that Pang Shae is worthless after she did what she did.”
“It was a brave but foolish thing to do and you fully know that, Jiang Wei!” Zhuge Liang said looking at Jiang Wei who frowned.
“How dare you! That’s unbelievably low of you, Prime Minister!” Jiang Wei growled glaring at Zhuge Liang.
“Please Jiang Wei, stop yelling at Zhuge Liang…” Pang Shae said looking out the window watching the trees sway in the night wind. She looked at the ground. She’d almost been lying there for 3 or 4 days. Thought she had great company, she felt horribly weak, like she could just pass out and die on the spot but she fought it as best as she could.
“Pang Tong come back latter and if you don’t I’ll get Guan Ping to hunt you down.” Pang Shae said. “Guan Ping…There is something I have to tell you…something important.” She muttered. It was in her eyes, she had almost given up on all hope, the life that had once been energetic, was leaving her eyes.
“Zhuge Liang, I want you to ask everyone in the castle that I know to come see me, please, you better do it!” She growled and watched Zhuge Liang walk out of the room grumbling, dragging Pang Tong as the others left and Guan Ping took a seat in one of the chairs next to the bed.
“What’s wrong? Why did you send everyone out of the room?” He asked looking at Pang Shae who closed her eyes, tears of joy, pain, and anger welling up in her eyes. She placed her hand on her side and lifted it looking at the blood that had already soaked through the bandages. “And I never knew that you cared about Jiang Wei so much…I mean…do you…” He started.
“No…I don’t…not like that…” Pang Shae said between sharp breaths, the tears in her eyes running down her already tearstained face. “Why do you think I jumped in front of you and lord Lui Bei…Mainly in front of you?” She muttered.
“Pang Shae! Don’t cry! There’s nothing to cry about! Are you still up set with Pang Tong or does it hurt?” Guan Ping said in a slightly worried voice. Crying always made things worse and he couldn’t stand seeing her so upset, it just wasn’t right. “Don’t cry…I don’t like seeing you cry…”
“So you don’t like seeing me…most of the time…” Pang Shae said looking at Guan Ping, her eyes glossing over and her once determined voice was fading to nothing but a small whisper.
“No…I don’t like seeing the people that make you cry…” Guan Ping said smiling slightly, looking at Pang Shae. “You have to understand that…you’re one of my closest friends…no…you’re more then that…” He muttered.
“I’m happy…that you feel…that way, because I feel…the same way, Guan Ping…I really do…and that’s what I had to tell you that was so important. It’s you…that I…have loved…” She muttered in a soft voice, smiling.
“I have to go…Pang Shae…hang in there…please hang on.” Guan Ping said standing up and walking out of the room. “Just hang in there.” He muttered.

It was then that Pang Shae could feel it taking over the urge to close her eyes. The sun was about to rise and she had a feeling that she was dying because of something else that had happened. You give and you get. Little did she know, someone important from Wu had died and now karma was coming around and death was knocking on her door. I can’t believe how my heart skipped when I saw my dearest little sister laying under blood stained blankets, and then she simply smiled at me like nothing wrong had ever happened. Yet I knew I had done this girl so much wrong in her life and it was time for me to repay her for what I had done.

Pang Tong slowly walked into the dimly lit room looking down at his sister. “What do you think of me now, Pang Tong, now that I’m on my death bed and you never seemed to care about be, what do you think of me now?” Pang Shae said softly. Pang Tong sat down next to his sister’s bed looking down at her, at a loss of words.
“Pang Shae…I’m not sure anymore…I guess that I’m amazed that you’re fighting through this…it’s amazing.” Pang Tong said looking at Pang Shae who smiled looking at her brother with tears in her eyes. She sat up and leaned closer to him.
“Are you proud of me my dearest brother?” She asked looking Pang Tong in the eyes. “Are you proud of me?” She asked.
“Do you forgive me? Do you forgive Zhuge Liang and I for all that we’ve done?” Pang Tong asked looking at Pang Shae who pulled her brother into a hug, tears streaming down her face once again as she felt death taking over.
“Big brother, tell Guan Ping I love him and tell Zhuge Liang I forgive him…Tell Lord Lui Bei that I’m grateful…tell Zhao Yun that he was the inspiration that I’ve always needed…Tell Sing Shang, Ma Chao, and Sing Chao that they are the greatest friends I’ve ever had…tell Jiang Ai that she’s the best friend I could ask for…tell Jiang Wei that I thank him for all he’s done…and…let me tell you this…” Pang Shae closed her eyes, which were glossed over.
“Pang Tong…I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you and Pang Tong…I…always only wanted…you to be proud of me…and I only want you to know that…I love you…and…I…forgive…you…” Pang Shae’s grip on Pang Tong loosened as the sun raised and she fell backwards into her bed. Her breath slowly came to a stop and Pang Tong looked at her, closing his eyes.
“I am proud of you…my dearest sister.” He said standing up and leaning down kissing his sister’s forehead before standing up and walking out of the room, putting out all the lights but leaving the window open and then closed the door. “Good bye…Pang Shae…” He muttered.

Pang Shae…what would you think of me now? So lucky so strong so proud. I never said thank you for that…now I’ll never have a chance.

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

“PANG SHAE! No you can’t leave! Not yet! I never got to tell you goodbye…” Jiang Ai said running into Pang Shae’s room looking at the dead body of her best friend that was lying in the blood stained bed. She screamed and ran to the bedside shaking Pang Shae’s limp body.
“Jiang Ai…she’s gone…” Came Jiang Wei’s shaken yet gentle voice to his sister’s ears. He walked over and put his hand on his sister’s shoulder. “She’s still watching over you…and someday you’ll be together again…” He said smiling slightly trying to calm Jiang Ai down. “The people of Wu are going through the same sorrow you are…” He muttered.
“I know, Jiang Wei, but I never got to tell her goodbye…” Jiang Ai said letting Pang Shae go and putting her to rest in the bed once again. “And I that I’m so happy that she was my friend…” She muttered.
“Great warriors souls never leave the ones they love…Pang Shae was a great warrior and her though her body is gone and we can no longer see her…she’s still right here…” Came Zhao Yun’s voice from the doorway. Sing Shang was standing behind him, smiling slightly.
“Zhao Yun is right…” She said, “Pang Shae will always be with you, Jiang Ai, she’ll always be with all of us…” She muttered looking at Jiang Ai. Jiang Wei looked at Pang Shae and closed his eyes looking out the window that hung over her bed. The only light in the room came from the sun hanging over the trees.
“Jiang Wei…what’s wrong are you crying?” Sing Shang asked looking at Jiang Wei who stared out the window at the rising sun the birds outside singing a soft and almost gloomy song.
“A song for a heart so big…” Jiang Wei muttered looking at Pang Shae. “You’ve taught us all so much, dearest Pang Shae…You taught us that love and hate are two of the same thing…that even if you hate someone that they really mean something to you deep down…” He muttered.
Jiang Ai closed her eyes and went running from the room in tears she ran out of the large castle and stopped. “Jiang Ai…” Muttered a voice. Jiang Ai looked around quickly, not seeing anyone near her.
“Who’s there? Hello? SOMEONE!” Jiang Ai yelled looking around carefully still not getting an answer. She closed her eyes and continued walking forward, tears still rolling down her eyes. “A bond so strange and so strong…” She muttered.
“Poor Jiang Ai…it must be hard for her…” Sing Shang said looking at Pang Shae. “Lord Lui Bei said he will be visiting her soon…He said that he’s dragging Zhuge Liang with him…” She muttered looking at the ground.
“Jiang Ai…I’m still right here…can’t you tell…” Muttered a voice. “And I know that you care…Jiang Ai…thank you for everything…” Jiang Ai looked around she was standing in the place she had met Pang Shae. “Jiang Ai…I’m happy that I called you my friend.” The same voice said.
“P-Pang Shae?” Jiang Ai asked looking around carefully. “Pang Shae is that you?” She asked spinning around. It was a beautiful day and the sun was shining brightly.
“I’ll always be right here…Jiang Ai…It is me and I’m still right here…Jiang Ai you’re never alone…I promise.” Said the same voice. Jiang Ai finally realized it was Pang Shae’s voice in her head. “I’ve meet Guo Jai…he’s very sweet…” Pang Shae’s voice said.

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

Jiang Ai finally realized that she and the people of Wu had something in common they had both lost a loved one to the enemy but that loved one would never leave her side because Pang Shae was a strong and wonderful person that none of us would forget. At the funeral held for her we were all deeply upset, but it was mostly me that was upset. I hung back in the distance and watched as all the people of Shu came up to say something about Pang Shae, Jiang Ai started.

“Pang Shae was the best friend I could ever ask for and she taught me that even if people up you down, you always have to stand back up and keep trying because if you don’t then you’ll waist away and you’ll never be remember. May she watch over us for as long as we all live! Pang Shae…thank you for everything.” Jiang Ai said fighting tears and Jiang Wei walked up next to her looking at everyone.
“Pang Shae was one of the strongest girls I’ve ever meet and she had a heart of gold and a will that would never be crushed because she was fighting for what she thought was right, she fought not only for her kingdom but for her friends and she fought not only for her self but for the people she loved with all of her heart. I know that if we all had a heart as big as her’s then we would all have the faith to be able to unite together and stop all the war that is happening to cause this sorrow…” Jiang Wei said looking around. “Jiang Ai taught me more then I ever taught her and I never said thank you for that…” he muttered.
Zhao Yun stood up walking up next to Jiang Ai and Jiang Wei. “I knew that Pang Shae was an amazing person and I knew that having her do that was a good idea and a bad one all at once but I let myself send her in my place because I thought that maybe if she was given a chance then she would shine like we all knew she could, and Pang Shae, if you want to know what we all think of you know…I know that I think you are a great girl with a heart as big as all of china and with the power to die for anything you need to.” He said loudly.
“Zhao Yun has said it all! Pang Shae…may you soar with wings of gold!” Sing Shang said looking up at the blue sky. Pang Tong looked at the ground and nodded looking around. Sing Chao agreed with her sister with a nod.
“And she will be remember with honor and she will be looked at with joy and her name with be a sign of hope for us all! She’s a great woman that will always live on in our hearts!” Lui Bei said and started going off on a long speech about Pang Shae.

It was then that I realized that I was all alone in the world, and it hit me…I never got to tell her how proud I was, and as I watched the others giving their speeches about my sister, I realized that I was the luckiest person there because she was my sister and I was blessed with the grace of being able to be related to her, and I wonder it Zhuge Liang was going to ever change his mind about her.

Lui Bei and several others finished their speech and Lui Bei looked at Zhuge Liang. “Do you have anything to say about Pang Shae, Zhuge Liang?” Lui Bei asked looking at Zhuge Liang who stood up looking around at everyone.
“You better have something to say! Because we all know she has more worth then all of us, including you!” Jiang Ai said looking at Zhuge Liang who frowned slightly walking up to the others.
“I think that Pang Shae was not useless and she was not worthless…I think she’s a total fool who threw her life away for no reason and that you all do not know the meaning of a great warrior!” Zhuge Liang said clearly determined not to let them know how he felt about Pang Shae, but for some reason he both hated her and thought she was a great person all at once. He despised her yet was so attached to her and knew that she had so much potential.
Jiang Wei had just about had enough of Zhuge Liang’s hate towards Pang Shae. “How dare you sat that! I can’t believe you, Prime Minister. Even after all Pang Shae has done you still hate her like this I can’t take it anymore!” He growled.
“The Prime Minister doesn’t hate Pang Shae…you can see it in his eyes…” Jiang Ai said looking from Jiang Wei to Zhuge Liang. “In fact…deep down I have this feeling that the Prime Minister is just as upset that Pang Shae is gone as we are…” She said smiling slightly.
Jiang Wei looked at Zhuge Liang and nodded. “You’re right, Jiang Ai, he does…” He muttered looking at his sister who smiled.
“Goodbye is so hard to say…” Guan Ping muttered. Everyone nodded in agreement. “But you know…I have this strange feeling…that this is how she wanted to die.” He added looking around at everyone. He looked at Jiang Ai who smiled looking up at the tree above Pang Tong, sitting in the tree was the faded figure of Pang Shae.
“You know…I have this feeling that Pang Shae will never really leave us…” Jiang Ai said smiling as the form of Pang Shae jumped down from the tree and looked at Pang Tong, and as if she really was their, she pulled Pang Tong to his feet.
“Big brother…May your life be filled with joy…and may you be blessed until the end of your days.” Pang Shae’s voice echoed through Pang Tong’s head. Pang Tong looked around and smiled nodding slightly, fighting the tears that his body wanted so much to cry.
Jiang Ai watched Pang Shae’s figure walk up to Zhuge Liang. “I’m sorry for everything I’ve to you…I know that you really care about me. May you be blessed with long life and happiness…I’ll see you on the other side…” She said smiling.
Pang Shae continued on to Lui Bei and just smiled and moved on next to Zhao Yun. “Dearest Zhao Yun…you were like a big brother when I thought my own hated me. You pushed me onward and I need you to know that no matter what I’ll always be by your side helping you just like you helped me…please live on and on in peace because you know that I really care about you.” Pang Shae hugged Zhao Yun and smiled. “Thank you Zhao Yun…for everything…and thank you for sending me in your place…” She muttered.
Jiang Ai watched Zhao Yun smile as if he two could feel Pang Shae was there. She watched the shadowy figure of Pang Shae to fade out slightly looking at Sing Shang, Sing Chao and Ma Chao. “You guys made me smile when I thought all hope was lost. Thank you dearest friends…thank you so much for everything you’ve done.” She said and looked on saying her goodbyes and thank yous to all the people that she knew finally stopping in front of Jiang Wei and as if without hesitating Jiang Ai watched Pang Shae’s ghost or whatever it was, throw it’s arms around Jiang Wei.
“Thank you…Jiang Wei…for believing in me when I thought no one else did…thank you for doing all that you did and thank you for being so proud of me…Thank you for standing up to me and thank you for being there for me when I was lost in the dark.” She said, Jiang Ai could see that all of the others could feel Pang Shae’s presence among them, as they were all smiling, and a few of them were crying.

[*~Star Of Hope~*]

Pang Shae moved over to Guan Ping and smiled. “Thank you, Guan Ping, for everything and I know that you’re upset that I couldn’t hang on any longer but…I really do care about you and I’ll always be watching over you, and protecting you just like I always have been. May you live life to it’s fullest and may you always know that I love you…and that I’m glade that I got to tell you so before I passed on…but for now, goodbye is hard to say and I know I have to say it, Goodbye, Guan Ping, and thank you…” She muttered hugging Guan Ping.
Pang Shae smiled letting go of Guan Ping and moving to his side. “Jiang Ai…I know you can see me…” She muttered, “And I know you can hear me…” She added looking Jiang Ai in the eyes. “And I know that you know full well that I’ll always be with you, and that I’m glade that you’ve always been there for me and that you gave me a place to go when I was scared and when I was sad and when I was angry and you always found a way to make me laugh. I wouldn’t be half the person I was if it wasn’t for you, thank you, Jiang Ai.” Pang Shae whispered.
Jiang Ai smiled closing her eyes and hugging the shadowy air that was Pang Shae. “Thank you Pang Shae…goodbye me dearest friend…I’m sorry I didn’t get to tell you that before but…goodbye…” Jiang Ai said a tear running down her cheek and hit the ground at the same time as a tear from nowhere hit the ground. Jiang Ai looked at the ground. “It’s so hard to say goodbye to you, Pang Shae, but…you’ve made me so luck and so strong and…thank you…” She said.
Pang Shae smiled and steeped out of Jiang Ai’s grasp, closing her eyes and looking at the sky as a gold and sliver dragonfly flew past and the sunlight hit her. There was a soft breeze and she disappeared into the air, the dragonfly soared into the air around the others and the soft breeze grew harder.
Lui Bei smiled slightly. “The Sliver Dragonfly still lives on in our hearts.” He said nodding looking at the others who nodded as well as the dragonfly circled around them and flew off into the forest.

“A falling Star…”
We all learned so much from Pang Shae, but I know that Zhuge Liang and I have the learned the most from her. We learned that even if someone doesn’t seem they can do much, they could do what everything they put their mind to because though people may look weak they can be the strongest person in the world.
“Means Just one thing…”
And I know that we all learned even more from her…and that’s that people with hearts like that, are the best people in the world and the people that know them, have everything they need in the world.
“A Forgotten wish…”
And even though we might not see the people we love…they will stay with us until the day we die, because if they have the power to die for us, like Pang Shae did, then their soul is to strong to stomp out and they can’t leave us no matter what because they will live on in us because we love them.
“With broken wings…”
This is how a broken heart moves on…this is how someone who lost so much and gained even more dies. This is how an amazing girl who was put down all her life passes away. This is how Pang Shae died.
“But I know joy will soar again…”
This is how we all know we want to die. This is how faith takes wings and flies to the sky. This is how a sliver dragonfly moves on after finding it’s wings it soars to the sky and it watches the people it loves from high above because it couldn’t in life when it had no wings, this is how Pang Shae…a sister, a lover, a friend, a teacher and most of all, a great warrior, died.
“Our love is alive until the end…”
May my dearest sister rest in peace know that I’m so proud of her and that I love her more then anything and that everything in this life means so much more when I look at it from the same angel she did.